DISTRACTION, when i really should be studying

YAYES! marketing exam was a BLAST! thank goodness it was an open book exam...i just copied copied copied and copied my notes...and i just realised...i shouldnt have wasted my time studying when
1. all the cost based value based pricing/ mkting channels and whatever shit obviously didnt get into my head
2. ITS AN OPEN BOOK EXAM!!!

so dumb. uni makes people dumber. yes. anyways...i was suppose to study this whole week...and last week too i think?
but obviously, i got distracted by many many other things
1. SHOPPING ONLINE. the internet is a horrible thing esp when it comes with online stores
2. moving house
3. visits from the bf
4. crazy sister bugging me when her A levels are not over either!

okkays...kindof like number 3 and 4...number 1 is just an excuse to have a reason to use my laptop and number 2 is horrible ):

im veryveryvery sure im gonna miss bt timah )): its where everything important is...
ALL MY ICE CREAM SHOPS ):
MY PIZZA SHOPS ):
my botanical gardens
my childhood happykappy restaurant
bt timah market food
KOREAN RESTAURANTS ))):
bt timah is like an old school yet very impt place...somehow...yahh...
had BURGER SHACK yesterday with alvin before i move out of the area...kindof funny cause we both changed our burger buns for butter rice...hehe...guesss we're not bread pple...though i LOVE swiss bake's butter sugar toast!!


pulled pork and grilled chicken caser
pulled pork was very yummie!! the chicken one was nice too but dont reallie like the chicken skin...never ever liked chicken skin!!
hehe...
bt timah = anyhow dress but still can go out, ice cream supper, take away pizzas, HOME ):


my dear boy :D got called to have lunch with my papa today...hehe hope he survives the lunch! hannnng in thhhheerrree dude!

DISTRACTIONS

my destructive baby...
too lazy to type already...my notes are calling out to me but...i dont know half of the words on it... )):
hope i'll get my prada bbag sooooon. yes mummy?

so i survived the long nights, the deadends, the reports.
only left with exams!!
easy peeezy lemon squeezy!
hehe...
yepps...yayeeees mummy bought me my coah wallet (: hope she can find the havaianas!
i kept thinking about it...and maybe, just maybe, im living in my own world with my own expectations.
or maybe, maybe, i just dont matter that much,
not that important
not that significant.
its not only to one person but to many others.
so maybe, just maybe,
its time to get away from this world
i think i have enough. of waiting, tolerating, compramising
you have to work for it if you want something.
especially a relationship.

2330hrs. NUS architecture drive, Level 1, I.D year 2 studio.



my friend captioned this as sad school life.
superficially i think it is true.
but, as much as we hate sanding, cutting, racking our brains over french words, drawing, staring at the computer,
at the end, we have something to call our own. our blood sweat tears, our own product, our babee
something you know you've slogged so hard for. something you will be proud to label your name onto.
i must say, studio life is far WORSE than project runway.
they get to knock off at 12am and they have free transport to a lovely bed to rest.
we, designers (the real designers) work 24hrs.
how can there ever be a deadline/ a time to complete your work?
the only deadline is when you have to present/ pitch your design. until that very second, there is no such thing as a deadline.
you just keep working until you think your product is perfect.
and believe me, it is very rare that you ever think your design is perfect.
but im happy i lead a 24hr life. can savour every moment on earth.

wells, that phrase on the wall of our mazamine(mid level) area in studio was written by a graduated senior when he was in year 2.
i guess its the year they reallie push us. so we will look forward to exchange. to see what else we can handle out there.
NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE.
so  my choices for exchange would be
1. milian
2. norway
3.netherlands
4. france
5. south korea
 come on jeanna! you've got to pray for a miracle to make it for exchange!
GET BACK TO WORK!

OKAYS.
school is not so stressful now...but the sad thing is that designers have no differentiation of
day/ night
sunny/rainy
recess week/normal school week
e learning week/ normal school week
public holiday/ school day
public holiday in lieu/ school day

especially when we are in studiiioooo.

on a lighter note, we had a field trip on saturday (deepavali mind you!) to sungei buloh for our eco design module...
and i didnt get lost driving there!!!
and i drove pass kranji reservior through kranji link and omg...the view was AWESOME. like totally AWESOME.
we then passed by kranji war memorial...that was across kranji link...where all the farms were...its like a little farm island...like an escapade from our crazy world.



after our field trip i met alvin for lunch then kayaking at pasir ris park...
it was a sunny day so no one else was kayaking! hoho...
we totally owned the sea...yepp,,,it was amazing....in the middle of no where, surrounded by water which looked like diamonds die to the sun's reflection... yes the water was green and yucky but it felt so GOOD. it was like totally quiet...haha maybe cause we rowed reallie far away...

thats obviously not us but we were that far away from shore...and we were the only ones floating...hehe pretty amazing...
and alvin tried to teach me how to row the correct way but i almost made him want to capsize me...it was reallie hard!! arms at a certain angle, paddle at a certain angle, blah blah blah....hehe...but interesting la...finally got to see how he look like rowing...heh...looks pretty cool when hes sprinting... :D
yepps! thats about it....lots of nature this weekend...time to go back to staring at my com )):
oh!
sinyan i dont think you'd want to go on sat, the sun was crazy hot...now im indian. yep.haha

YAYES!
so i survived this week! phew. 6 more weeks peeps. we've got to get it going.

to me,
scool just started, there was never a recess break, and schools ending soon.
shit, that means i've got to start studying for exams soon.
its kindof stupid that our tutors give us so much projects that there is not enough time to present them all? ( and i mean 9am-6pm)  now they want an extra day just to present extra stuff they made us do...bleh.
i just got out of a crazy patch of health related stuff...or maybe im still in in but not so bothered abt it anymore
i just got older and i still cry at the thought of being 20 instead of six.
i feel like im in a time capsule except i wish it was more of a time machine.
happiness seems vague yet so reviving
now that i can spend half a day catching up on my sleep i just had to wake up early and feel uncomfortable doing nothing.

got a giant pressie. its kindof funny looking at alvin's different hairstyles...hoho...from mushroom to botak to square to bowl shape...HAHA.
and mine, still the same. bleh. no fair. and i realise i make alot of funny faces when taking photos...haha i've got about 10 plus funny face pics in that...haha. but thanks anyways dude!

hope to see zoe and sinyan soon ): timetimetime where'd u go?
NG KI KI u owe me a pressie! oh jonathan too! hahahhas.


yayes my adobe illustrator babies...hahahs...do they look real? hope so!!

hohohos. forgot what to type...booked a flight to phuket two days after my exam...
havent told the parents! wish me luck!

im sorry i pulled you in. i shldnt have forced you in when my bubble is only big enough for one.
i wish i could blast that song, put on my earphones and never wake up.


I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems (when I fall asleep)

Leave my door open just a crack
(Please take me away from here)
Cuz I feel like such an insomniac
(Please take me away from here)
Why do I tire of counting sheep?
(Please take me away from here)
When I'm far too tired to fall asleep

To ten million fireflies
I'm weird 'cause I hate good-byes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell (said farewell)
But I'll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre
'Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar

HATETHECYCLE HATETHISCYCLE HATEHATEHATETHIS.

recess week is pretty much the same as a school week just that i get to sleep a little longer and i dont get to see my tutors. not much of a comfort. sometimes i just feel like zonking out of this world. out and away from this cycle. i know, im childish but whatever, i’ve been raised up in this week so…I CANT CHANGE THAT, my poor future husband who has to tolerate that. hoho. i like being in my own bubble, oblivious to anything or anyone. i wont call it being a loner but more of appreciating solitude. yepp. i still hate growing up.

ps, the time traveller’s wife is a GREAT movie. yesh, and the book is 10 times better!
i cant stand people bothering me and telling me stuff i wont bother to know or asking me questions as if im accountable to them. maybe he feels this way too.

OHS how i love my friends!
i miss you all!!!
isnt this pic so deja vu?
ohs. it feels like yesterday when we first met. when we mugged and did stupid things
and here we are back to square one when nothing else matters, only good ol company (:
i <3 you all.
(:

TOO EARLY TO BE STRESSED.

i totally agree…but what can i say…its only been week 3 and i’m spending more than 12 hours a day in school going on and on and on with only 15 mins for lunch and maybe 10 mins for dinner…how about that. and still, there seem to be a bottomless pit filled with work for me to finish. i remember i’m suppose to love what i do and do it with DRIVE. yes, im trying hard and i must say my stamina this sem is much better than any other i’ve had in my life. hohoho…and PJC asked me to go back and share my experience this time for the J2s but too bad…im a busy person…haha…they asked me to help out at the night study programme too…but 1, the obviously dont know what they’re getting into and 2, i doubt i have the time…i thought it’ll be okay initially but now i doubt so…i leave my studio later than any pjc student would want to stay in school…i think by 11.30pm they would already be struggling with the temptation of going to bed. or maybe not. but…yah…i sometimes kindof wonder if he need not follow the army regiment would he still be so tired? would he have more energy to pay attention? ahhh sighs…more work calling out to me…GO JEANNA GO!

i realise that id pple tend to get abit weird when they stay in studio for too long…

hoho.

8hrs later im back in studio
its as if i never left. maybe cause the work dont cease even after you're back home. boohoo.
i just realised...that im in a blank...i want to tell it to you but we're too busy or too tired. i want to let you know but at the same time i hope you never ever realise...maybe its cause of the fear or maybe its just me being weird...or maybe its cause of things happening around me. sigh. theres so much things, tension, maybe even mundane-ness that i've become blank. like a reallie long sigh...until theres nothing left. nothing left to say. silence.

i've gotta feeling...
that tonights gonna be a gd nite, that tonights gonna be a gd gd nite (:




xoxo, bestfriends forever (:
wells...went to pasir ris park without getting lost ((: eventhough i kept asking alvin if i was driving on the correct expressway...
HUR.
anyways...nice place to slack and do nothing...wanted to row but it was too cold so ended up cycling.
anyways im just happy being able to do something with the dumbdumb...its been pretty long since we've gone out to actually do something...
yepp. :D crazy projects coming up...JIAYOUUU JEANNA!!! so weird being yr2...like....im so old ): boohoo

IM TERRIBLY BORED!!!
boohoo whats new...
i get time to rest but why do i seem so restless
im awfully tired from my activities the past few days
but why cant i seem to recuperate?
maybe its cause school is starting...or cause im moving soon
or cause saturday is coming.
cant wait. but not gonna be too hopeful.
i kindof miss the children more than expected.
hur. can i tell you im bored?
can i bug you and go on and on and on?
i need to take a trip.again.this time maybe a longer one.
this time maybe to somewhere further.
away.
i want a lomo!!!
i want you.

hohoho

last day of work today…kindof having mixed feelings…glad i wont have to yell at screaming children anymore but sad that im leaving a world of innocence. hurhur but im gonna give tuition to one of the childcare kid…haha…i’ve found some reallie interesting children as well as some children who are reallie good at melting my heart…some who’ve blown me away…i dont think i’ll ever know how much of a difference i’ve made in their life but i hope i’ve made some.yepp! i dont think i’ll ever forget their smiles it reallie brightens up any moody day…hurhur

schools starting…i’m ready to knock my tutors’ socks off! haha…gonna get ready to move house too!!! whhhheeee!!! i can now tann on the rooftop!! maybe i shld ask daddy to build a slide to connect the roof to the swimming pool!! hurhur!! but its gonna be much smaller than my current house ): boohoo…luckily we’re not selling it away!!! yayes! ope is like buried here…haha…my ope babyy…(: i miss you(: and a whole lot of other things. sigh.

i hate abhoring to norms yet, i dislike changes just as much.

how ironic.

i was watching harry potter when i suddenly had this weird occurance 

i suddenly thought ‘’ why am i watching harry potter with this guy?’’

omgg…it was like a one second memory loss…so weird.i guess, your hectic mundane army life has taken a toll on us.maybe? i dont really know…or maybe its cause i’ve been withstanding screaming children by day and watching far too much korean drama by night. whatever it is, its kindof getting to me. yepp we shall be chingoo(friends)…it makes it much easier for everyone else doesnt it?

i wonder if you call out my name when you get drunk. or would it be someone else’s?

why do you dislike valentine’s day so much? should i probe further?

it probably didnt occur to you how much you mean to me or how i can get gumpy just cause you’re grumpy. or how much i want to be there when something makes you upset and frustrated. i bet im the cause of most of your frustrations anyways. maybemaybemaybemaybe time is set for us. seconds go by and we drift apart.yet i know for sure that feelings fade but love remains the same, at least for some time.

ohwells, i shall live happily with my champchamp and stop thinking. i wanna get so many things though my closet is bursting! the screws are literally popping out! a few dopped out already…hurhur. but…i absolutely need my essential basic tops!!! organic cotton!!! wahahahhaha

HOHOHO!!!

my longchamp arrived yesterday!!

it even came in a nice paper bag….hurhur…

leather from paris indeed smells different! i love that smell…hurhur..yumyum!

and the best thing is that mummy didnt scold!!! double yayes!!! hannah bought a whole load of prada.

omgg…and she didnt get me my wallet ): boohooo!! but next time i’ll know which part of paris to go grab the good stuff!! haha!!

SOHAPPYSOHAPPYSOHAPPYSOHAPPY!!!

went to alvin’s hse yesterday to visit garry and collect soonkueh…just lazed around…i guess thats more of quality time to me as compared to doing exciting stuff…some quiet time is good too i guess since i have to endure high pitch noises from the crazy green monsters everyday… haha…

yepp…and he didnt let me take bus home…insisted on me taking a cab home): booo! i wanted to stone on the bus and learn how to go home in the dark myself! pfft!

ohwells. we’re so weird. but whatever…

too cool for school, too tall for heels. haha. champchamp!

ohoh! watched transformers that day and OMGG megan fox is dammmn hot! haha and so are the graphics and the robots but ya….MEgan fox is soooo hot!! that decepticon girl is hot too…haha! surprised that alvin wasnt drooling… nah. hes a blockhead…only warfare and explosions amuse him. heh(: cant wait for aug to come!!!! whhhheeee!

i remember what i wanted to post about…HAHA….

i think, the only think i saw in hongkong which inspired me was a passion for creation…

yesh the posh chanel,LV,gucci buildings caught my eye and awed me but a passion for creation was the one which gave me a tingy feeling…a drive, a motivation, you could say…

it put me back to designer mode.

yeshh…im gonna do it…im going to design something which inspires people…to leave them with their eyes wide open and their jaws hanging… to be inspired by an inspiration. yeshhh!! HURHUR.  i hope i’ll do better for studio next sem (: GO J!! haha…

you caught my eye and i’ve never let you go since

23s here and 24s coming…

you’re my wonderwall :D

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I
( my cup walker date. )

                                                                        cause all of the stars, are fading away
                                                                            try not to worry, you'll find them some day
                                                                           just take what you have and be on your way
( Read more... )
                                                                            

( LALA things which make me go WILD! )( LALA things which make me go WILD! )
 

you me.and rum.i love

yayes…papas backk!! so i drove to work and parked!!! haha wasnt so bad today :D haha and i waited and waited…actually i didnt wait so long cause the center was quite busy today…and then 5 O’CLOCK!!! yayes!! and so papa came with the car and i drove to alvin’s house to pick him!! and then i drove to the yatch club and we went swimming while papa went gymming….haha…it was kindof funny cause there was no sun and the wind was reallie cold but the water was nice and warm (: didnt swim much…just stonned at the floating boats and talked about how much we shall save to go on our aussie trip at de end of the year…he even contemplated playing with currency stocks!! omg !! haha…then saw a tiny bit of sunset since it was kindof cloudy…went to the prata shop for dinner feast…plaster prata cheese prata maggie goreng roti john…OMG. and then we went to pukka for yummie icecream with mix ins!! rum and raisin is good…whole load of rum which will muake you go dizzy!! haha…had extra illegimate hello panda mix ins too!! haha!! yepp then we took a long 151 bus ride home…yep… went to fetch sarah from tuition while he went home due to his 3.30am wake up time tmr…yep…went to KAP mac for sarah’s supper and HOME. at last! HAHA… cant wait for dec to come…yepp…it shall just be u and me against the world! i finally figured out what happens when you get too much happiness…u feel scared cause you dont know when it’ll be taken away. it may happen anytime anywhere. im glad that u feel warmer when im ard :D hope its how i interpret it to be. SENTOSA TMR! BRING IT ON GREEN MONSTERS! I’VE GOT MY RUSTY GIRL GUIDE WHISTLE FOR SOS!

checchechceck check yes juliet.

(:

catch me if you can!

whooohoooo!!

so i drove to work today in the mazda3!!! hehe…it feels much smoother than the bbdc cars!! yeahh mann….hehe vroomvroom!! and i tried to parkk!! omg lahh!! i could only get in on my second attempt…haha not bad lah hur….

okays so i’ve started chasing primary school kids ard…omggg they are like CRAZY. we went to macritchie for outing today and they are like MONSTERS!! i could tell that even the cafe guy remembered them from the last trip a year ago…his face had the OMG ITS THEM AGAIN look… HAHA!

anyways…they were so amused by the echo of their voices that they couldnt stop screaming!! talk about serenity…omg lahh…CRAZY CRAZY CRAZY. crazy kids. i hope my kids dont turn out like that in future…i SHOULD tell my aunt to scold them! to tell them that they are not barbarians and they need not SCREEEEAAAMMM at each other when they are having a conversation neither do they need to use vulgarities to express their discontent. hehe. oh wells. but it was nice seeing pple row… i wanna go kayaking someday too…now i totally regret agreeing to help out…BUT. oh wells. no turning back!